Life or Death... Which one?

Prolouge

I felt a hot tear slide down my cheek. I tried to wipe it away before any one saw, even though no one was in the room. I can't believe i just did that. what is wrong with me? I thought as i watched a little trickle of red flow down my arm. I didn't know why i did it, i just did. everything was going wrong. there was too much pain inside. I couldn't think of any other way to let it out.
i sat there. and i cried. running through all the details in my head of why i went over the edge. Of all the people, and all the sorrow, all the pain, and all the hurt that i felt. Why did this make it all go away? I knew.... because this is the only thing i would let make it all go away.

(Comment plz. i want to know what you guys think.)

DYNOMIIITE!!!! Good job, Lexci.

i dont see where your goin with this but i like it

Ha ha thanks guys. ok. here i go.... im totally makin this up as i go.

Part I

I could feel the hard points of the rocks on my feet through the souls of my shoes as i walked on the gravel in my drive way. My head ached and my eyes burned. I really just want to go in my room and cry.

Sorry, this probably makes no sense, my name is Amber. I'm 15 and hate my life already. Isn't that horrible? My life hasn't even started and I already hate it with a passion.

Anyway, where was I? Oh yeah, i remember now. Today was probably one of the most horrible days of my life. Well I can't really say that. I guess everyone says that when they are upset.

Wow, i can really ramble. Ok, so lets get to the point. What happened was that i was imberresed and humiliated and totally shamed. I felt so dirty. I did something that i really regret and now I'm paying for it. I guess I thought that all the girls were doing it. I thought he loved me. I thought i loved him. How will i ever live through this?

I'm sorry. I'm still not making any sense am I? Well, i guess i better start from the beginning.

It all started I don't even know how lang ago, I think it was around October. Yeah, that's it. Last October all of this started. It was a wonderful evening and the sunset was pleasantly warm, I remember the feeling of it on my skin. I was getting ready to go eat dinner that night when my friend Maya called.

"Hello?"
"Hey Am, its Maya. I need to talk to you. I have major news. I just found this totally chill site yesterday and I want you to check it out. Do you have a paper and pen with you?" Maya pleasantly conversed. I scrambled for a pen and paper and found both in a drawer next to the computer.

"Okay Em, shoot"

"K, it's www. Chatterteens. com" (i just made that up instead of the real site, they aren't at fault)

"Ok dude, I got it." I said, writing down the site.

"Check it out and tell me what you think. It's way chill. I'm sure you'll love it"

"Ok, I'll look at it." I said quickly, my stomach was growling. I hadn't eaten lunch that day and was really hungry.

"K, later"

"Later dude" I said then hung up the phone. Like i said, i was really hungry, so i ran to the table and got a full plate of dinner. Can't recall what it was we ate though.

Pretty good, Lexci.

A few minor issues, but overall, it's a well-done job, so far.

Thrasher9294 wrote:

Pretty good, Lexci.

A few minor issues, but overall, it's a well-done job, so far.